well again i've gone to another awesome rave!!! It's hilarious what happened...K first off we head off to San Francisco to the map point and get lost off our asses. When we finally get to the map point we find out that the party has been busted...WTF...we were like hell no!!! so they gave us directions to the party anywayz... when we get there we see hella kids at this gas station so we stop by and talk to them. The party had really been shut down...But we find out about an underground the same night. So we go to this parking area and diddle daddle for a while waiting for a shuttle to pick us up?! So this humongo van comes and picks us up and brings us out to this wierd secluded area where a warehouse is and the party is!!! This party was bumpin!!! Undergrounds are way better than commercialized raves!! I've been to only two u.g. raves but both of my experiences have been good. I met a lot of cool people and the people that i went with were totally cool!! i know i'm gonna be hangin out with them more often. It's wierd bcuz i feel closer to them than my "friends". I can't wait til the next rave with them. Anywayz...so we leave the party around 6 a.m. and head on back home... but none of us really want to or can go home yet.....so we go to the "chill hill" this hill that over looks some of the bay area...it was just the perfect ending to an awesome party...so we stay there and watch the world awaken and it's fukken dope. Finally my friend slowly drops us off one by one and it was just the perfect weekend as ususal...I love raving it's the best thing ....no one can really understand....it's like a special little world...a special family...I feel so rejuvenated and refreshed....my mind, body, and soul has been nourished and it's just great...It's something that makes me the happy person that i am. When i move to SF next year i know i'm going to party a lot...it's gonna be great...well i thought i'd post my weekend...i'm out
Luckee - 8:10 PM
Friday, October 26, 2001
irritation...yes yes yes....kiddies for some odd reason i'm feeling really irritated. i'll get over it tho. hmmmm what's goin on today>not much. It's wierd bcuz it seems like over all i'm not the only one who felt how i've felt. Let me explain. Well from like 8th grade-now I would get into deep depressions and now that it's my last year(senior baby)hahah...i'm finding out that i'm not the only one who would feel like this. A couple of my friends have been deppressed and it's well not comforting to know but in a sense it is. It pulls my feet back down to the ground letting me realize that i'm not alone. But it's like I know how it is to be in their shoes and nothing anyone says or does can make "it" go away. So i don't know what to tell those people except just hope that one day they'll be okay. I know that at times i could swing down that path but something inside me just turns the other way now. I just feel good. I mean i still have my insecurities and stuff but I don't stress over things like i used to. I guess what everything boils down to is parents. HEY ALL YOU PARENTS OUT THERE...don't strangle your children. WE are not stupid. Yea yea you might think oh your just a kid you don't know what you want or need. But hello now we wouldn't need therapy if you would just back off. I don't know i just feel like my parents don't really know me at all...and that i need to hide the best parts of me. Through talkin to them I realize that they wouldn't accept who I really am...I wanna do what I wanna do and they're not going to stop me.
Luckee - 5:26 PM
Wednesday, October 24, 2001
Okay i'm still excited...and it's not gonna end til the last record spins...hahahha. why does doing something bad feel sooo good??? Why can't they make a drug that doesn't kill brain cells?? ARGH.....school clubs suck ass especially one at my school called FASA. I can't type right now cuz i'm online...but let me show u : 7 6: ewww r u goin to the fasa meeting
7 6: u better not
7 6: BETTER NOT
BbLe: maybe
7 6: oh HELL NAW
7 6: fukk fasa
7 6: trik azz biatches with smelly snatches
ble: haha
7 6: gosh jo
7 6: FASA suX
bLe: haha
OKAY i'm really irritated now...hahah....so i'm out...
Luckee - 8:53 PM
Monday, October 22, 2001
Okay guys I'm hella happy ....because i'm going to Lil Monsters!!! incase u didn't know what it is....it's going to be the dopest coolest "party" well halloween party at least. And i'm goin. Yea it's a rave...and i don't give a fukk if i get in trouble because at least it's going to be worth it!!! Okay that's all for now....i'm too happy and excited to write.
Luckee - 5:55 PM
Sunday, October 21, 2001
Okay....man i'm hella trippin!!! Let's rewind and i'll explain. On friday night my cuz came over to talk wit my aunt about his problems. His trippin about his break up wit his girl. And they were havin a hella deep convo. Cuz my aunt is in the same boat as he is. But it's like fukk so am I. All my feelings toward this one girl are starting to come back. I guess it's because we didn't really have any closure after we stopped talking. And all these stupid ass sappy ass love songs don't fukkin help. Like "gone by nsync" and "u got it bad by usher". Fukk is the world right now all heartbroken. I dunno i'm juss freakin hella trippin right now and feeling freakin emotional and shit. Okay i gotta stop trippin. So i'm stayin with my dad this week and i dunno i guess it's koo for now...but i know i'm gonna get irritated later in the week. Well I don't know what's going on with me right now but i feel really intact with my feelings. One thing that i just want to blow over is the distance between my friends. I feel like everyone has split apart and i dunno it's just wierd. We're all hating on each other and shit. I'm guilty of hating myself but i want to change and am trying to. The rave freakin opened my eyes to the world and shit. I know that sounds really retarded but it's sooo tru. I feel like i have a greater outlook on life and that i want everyone to be happy. I don't want my friends hating on each other and being "fake". I want everything to be cool; to be how it used to be. I don't know if this is possible at this moment but i'd like to think that it could be. Everyone is just going through stuff right now and i think that once things (if they ever do) blow over everything will be okay. I dunno like i said early i'm just being emotional or something and maybe i'm talkin out of my ass but this is how i feel so yea. I'm tired of writing now so i'm out.
PLUR
Luckee - 9:14 PM
Saturday, October 20, 2001
so it's a saturday night and i'm stuck at home babysitting. this certainly bites. i hate being at home on weekends. Oh well i'm definately goin out nexx weekend. So what's up with me? hmmmm....i don't know. Well let's see I like too many people and i don't know what to do about it. Can friends be more than friends? I mean this is a very controversial question because everyone has a different opinon. Yes i like one of my friends. But should i take a chance and risk gettin our friendship ruined? I don't think so , and that's why i haven't acted on my feelings. It's just kinda tough tho, like man i don't want to like this person but you can't help it. Then i'm anxiously awaiting my SAT scores. ARGh! I have a feeling i didn't do so well. I need to go to a rave really bad because I need to release all these negative vibes. hahah sounds cheesy i know but if you've ever gone raving you know what i'm talkin about. The vibe, the music, the people, the feeling. It's just soooo amazing. I can't express what I feel when i'm at a rave dancing, socializing, enjoying the music. It's more than happiness. It's like for one night time stops, all yer problems are gone, no one will judge you or hate on you, all you feel is love and music. I know it sounds really retarded and hippie-ish but it's the truth. It's such a cool thing. Sober or not sober you'll experience this. No one really understands this about raves. At least no one close to me. My parents and friends don't know how it is. I wish they could understand and see what it's really all about. Yea there are drugs being taken there....but it's not ALL about the drugs. Its sooooo much more than that and i wish my parents could see that. But since they can't i'll still have to sneak out to go to them...hahah. Being bad is soo much fun. But i know my limits and i'm not out of control. What to do...it's freakin boring as hell right now. Dayum! Today goin to stockton was a big mistake. It was freakin HELLA boring! I went cuz of a family function but none of my cousin's went except one. I dunno it was just such a boring day today. Cleo and I were bored out of our minds. So a boring day finishes off with a boring night....whoopdee doo! this soo bites. and mah frend agrees wit me.
7 6: i hate being at home on weekends
44: word
7 6: man...there's nothing to do online
44: for real
7 6: haha...i feel hella lame...like there's nothing better to do than go online...LOL
44: its all good
44: there isnt ive been asleep since like 4
44: i just woke up
well i had to get out some of my rants....and i think i did...so i'm out...
Luckee - 10:51 PM
Thursday, October 18, 2001
Damn this blog spot ish! grrrrr....i just wrote this hecka long post and now i need to write it again...haha. Ok now i don't feel like repeating what i was saying so i'll write the cliff notes version. Me senior, next year move to san francisco. Me try to make senior year fun. So far kinda fun. Me make new friends and am starting to lose old friends. Me don't care, me just have fun. Me try be no hard feeling, no judging, no grudges. This work good for me so far. Conflict may occur sometime in this year but for now all good. I'm just feeling good. I'm not sad or mad nor have i been lately. Even if i have it was probably only for like a couple of hours. I'm just a happy guy. I'm also Lucky..hence the nickname. But if you wanna find out how i'm lucky ur going to have to email me..hehe. Now reading my babbling isn't so fun so on occasion i'm going to put aol convo's in here. (i'm copying my cousin because he told me to make this crap so i'm copying him)hahaha. For example:de: yououououououo suck
de: duck
7 6: i'm goin to stockton now
7 6: i'm not goin vegas no more
de: fer realz
de: kooh
de: i dont think iym even going
de: i juss sed that juss to go and stand by nick to see if he would say hi
de: iym watching the dont start now thing
de: its koohl
de: lol
7 6: hehe
7 6: gosh dork
de: waht
7 6: i'm makin a blog thing right now
de: lol
de: haha
de: its soooooo coohl
7 6: i don't know how to use it...i fergot
de: lol
de: its simple
de: i dunno how to insert pics
well that's all for now....PLUR OUT
Luckee - 5:53 PM
